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Larry Hammer ([personal profile] larryhammer) wrote2006-03-09 05:27 pm
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Failure at drafting a post

Subject: Managing failure

One advantage of writing frivolous metered narrative verse is that since commercial success is impossible, I'm freed from worrying about failure. That this is a pessimists's advantage has not been lost to me for many years. Nor to the Bad Brain Chemicals who like mockin


Subject: Staging

Do I improve? I hope so. I try to. Every project, I consciously work on a skill or two -- for the paused novel, structure and prose voice; for the new long poem, narrative pulse and dialog in verse. Last week, I wrote a stanza I'm still mighty pleased with, and think one of my best in terms of solid craft. This week, I picked up a story finished a couple years ago, and said, "Oh that's why it never sold -- and I know how to fix it now."

It's the waiting for the skills to jump to the next plateau that gets frustr


Subject: I sometimes wish I was less of an egoist

I sometimes wish I wrote poetry with more facility.
I sometimes wish I wrote free verse that doesn't sound like prose with line breaks.
I sometimes wish I wrote short poems better than long ones.
I sometimes wish I submitted what I do write more consistently.
I sometimes wish frivolous metered narrative verse was in fashion, or at least commonly marketable.
I sometimes wish it was possible to be a successful full-time writer at what I write best. Not that it ever was for any but a few.
I am not a failure.

Doing something I'm good at is too damn fun to be called failing. Doing something kin and kith like and believe in is not failing. Doing is not failing.

Not doing is


Subject: My ambitions are more modest than I am

One day, I'll manage to write a simple declarative sentence that isn't about me.

---L.